There are only six weeks left in the semester. I haven't learned a damn thing. I have a long list of things I want to learn, but this nagging guilt over not doing the class assignments keeps me from researching the stuff I'm interested in full tilt.
This blog entry had more steam when I was thinking about what to write a few hours ago. I guess I just wanted to write about how hard it is to participate in classes when there's no motivation. I was looking over the course descriptions that the profs handed out back in September, when I was filled with 'This is going to be so cool. Finally, I've found the kind of classes I want to take.' And that's still true, only now I'm still searching for instructors who really want to teach.
I started using Final Cut Pro, but I'm under a deadline so I'm just looking to get the project done and I'm making it harder on myself to learn the program. It's very complex. A big departure from iMovie. I need to produce something that I'm proud of. I haven't done anything this semester. Other people are involved in really cool projects and have learned a lot. All I feel I've gotten is closer to the confirmation of what I do best is teach. And that's nothing to sneeze at, but it's not what I came to GA for.
I had a few great conversations with some classmates today about the prg and my frustrations with it. I got some helpful advice. The one thing that I'm enjoying the most about this prg is the people. Very talented. Smart. Hopefully, I get a chance to collaborate with them on something.
My attention for my classes has been splintered by planning exit strategies. I have to explore the options: take next semester off, go back to teaching here in Atlanta, enroll in an intensive Macromedia course, work on my A Place At the Table project, move to NYC and take a class with bell hooks. I'm not getting what I want and I can't force myself to conform to how the learning is structured in this program.
I want to work on my A Place at the Table story tool.
